Holy Spirit

When i was weary, i pray to God. I dont really expect to much actually. Well, we know that God can do anything which according to us will be imposible to do. Once again in my life, i feel that God love me so much.

Thank you God.. You are the one that i can rely on.

At night after i ask God something, i dreamt something really weird, but infact this not the first time.. i've seldom had weird dreams. I dont know why, but sometimes it just give me a sign. Believe it or not, but its really happened.

Just as i feel yesterday, when i had that dream, somehow i feel like a holy spirit come to me..

Thank you God for all you have given to me..

Fooled by love

hmm.. just feel so sad..
saaaaad. really really sad.

I think i have been fooled by love. Ever heard of 'anything will do for love'? its really happen, and i just be a stupid person ever after. And i realize that when i feel really sad. But i dont know how to hate people. They always mean to me,.. But when i get mad, they also mad at me.. And when it comes.. I have to say Im sorry which i should not do , but i just did it..

I really feel so sad..

Sad Love Song

Lagi lagi soal cinta.. Bicara soal cinta gak ada habisnya.. kita gak pernah tau kapan dan dimana dan dengan siapa, tiba tiba aja dia datang dan kita cuma bisa merasakan. Itu yang terjadi sama aku. When u feel like u dont want seeing someone.. but suddenly you just got it. I felt in Love with someone, which i can not mention the name. Well actually i should not have that feeling with dia (biar tambah bertanya2 yang dimaksud man or woman.. hahaha). I just feel that my Love become stronger.
Dia ever told me the other day that i should not expect too much on the relationship, which i know already dia would said so. But since I cant ignore it, I just wait for the miracle. Wish that someday dia could be mine, so we can share time together with Love.
I just only can express my feeling by my writings, and supposed to be in my blog. Since i could not talk to anyone about waht i feel inside.

Now that something has happened. the relatives of dia which i meet just now also has a feeling for me.
But the Love i feel for dia can not be replaced with another. And dia ignore me after that. It makes me feel so sad. I feel like i wanna cry now. And i did it since few days ago.. cried in my room alone.. I miss dia so bad.. but i can do anything.

Im so sorry for what i've done for the love i feel for u.. please do not ignore me like that.. better u just kill me...

Jakarta International Java Jazz Festival 2007

What's unique about Jakarta International Java Jazz Festival

- More than just jazz : If you're not that keen on jazz, don't worry! Jakarta International Java Jazz Festival ("JJF") is not meant for jazz enthusiasts only. There are serious jazz tunes in the menu AND various other music styles : soul, R&B, reggae, hip hop, rap, pop, rock, ethnic, gospel, electro, latin, crossover - you name it! You will almost definitely find something that suits your very own personal taste and enjoy new experiences amid the overall "jazzy" atmosphere of the festival.

- All under one roof : To watch as many of your favorite artists as possible, yes, you may have to stage - hopping, leaving a show sooner in order to catch another. But at least, all you need to do is to RUN! No need to ride a taxi or walk a long distance since all of the 15 or more stages are in the same venue - the Jakarta Convention Center. Located strategically in the central of Jakarta, this 30,000 sqm modern landmark consisting of varied-size halls and spacious lobby areas is easily accessible from different parts of the city.

- STARS of today and tomorrow : In the festival, you can enjoy not only big, legendary names but also artists who are not yet widely recognized but are exceptionally talented and strong performers. We would like the festival to be a platform to promote high potential, less known and emerging musicians from many parts of the world while delivering a high quality, innovative program for you. Cross-cultural collaboration is a highlight of the festival.

- Music PLUS : Hang out with friends, greet your idols, take pictures, eat in the food stalls, shop for CDs, T-shirts and other groovy merchandise items, enjoy special offers and attractions in our sponsors booths, learn in Music Clinic, visit the exhibition (of music products), see the 'Jazz Icon Search' competition, awards presentation, win prizes . . . are things you can do - besides watching more than a thousand artists in action!

- Pocket counts : In JJF, you can enjoy 50 or more shows a day from emerging to headlining stars, both local and international, with entrance ticket cheaper than that of most single concerts in Jakarta or elsewhere. The saving is even bigger if you buy 'multipass', allowing you access to all acts - 3 days in a row (except the 'special shows' which require additional ticket). Compared to similar festivals worldwide, JJF also gives you "value for money". This is possible because of the strong support we have from the government, private companies and individuals in win-win, long - term partnerships.

- Paradise at your doorstep : To make your visit to Indonesia even more worthwhile and memorable, we are working with airlines, hotels and travel agents to provide you with attractive travel packages - including to Bali. The packages will be on offer starting in September 2006. Mark your calendar now for next year's Jakarta International Java Jazz Festival : March 2 - 4, 2007!

- Artist performance in 2007 : Jeffrey Osborne, Deniece Williams, Sadao Watanabe, Lewis Pragasam, Balawan Trio, John Scofield, Harvey Mason, Sergio Mendes, Idang Rasjidi, Michael Paulo, Rick Braun, Diane Schuur, Level 42, Austin Peralta, Larry Franco, Elfa's Singers, Syaharani, Airto Moreira, Kimiko Itoh, Koji Goto, Tomokazu Sugimoto, Gino Vannelli, Kenny Rankin, Chaka Khan, Jeff Lorber, Brian Bromberg, Eric Marienthal, Dave Weckl, David Benoit, Joshua Redman, Bobby Hutcherson, Jamie Cullum, Kyle Eastwood, Bubi Chen, and many others

Ekspresi Aura Kejujuran

Pernahkah menatap orang terdekat ketika sedang tidur.......
Kalau belum, cobalah sekali saja menatap mereka saat sedang tidur.

Saat itu yang tampak adalah ekspresi paling wajar dan paling jujur dari seseorang.
Seorang artis yang ketika di panggung begitu cantik dan gemerlap pun bisa jadi
akan tampak polos dan jauh berbeda jika ia sedang tidur.
Orang paling kejam di dunia pun jika ia sudah tidur tak akan tampak wajah bengisnya.

Perhatikanlah ayah Anda saat beliau sedang tidur.
Sadarilah, betapa badan yang dulu kekar dan gagah itu kini semakin tua dan ringkih,
betapa rambut-rambut putih mulai menghiasi kepalanya, betapa kerut merut mulai
terpahat di wajahnya. Orang inilah yang tiap hari bekerja keras untuk kesejahteraan kita,
anak-anaknya. Orang inilah yang rela melakukan apa saja asal perut kita kenyang dan
pendidikan kita berjalan lancar.

Sekarang, beralihlah. Lihatlah ibunda Anda. Kulitnya mulai keriput dan tangan yang
dulu halus membelai- belai tubuh bayi kita itu, kini kasar karena tempaan hidup yang
keras. Orang inilah yang tiap hari mengurus kebutuhan kita. Orang inilah yang paling
rajin mengingatkan dan mengomeli kita semata- mata karena rasa kasih dan sayang,
dan sayangnya, itu sering kita salah artikan.

Cobalah tatap wajah orang-orang tercinta itu...
Ayah, Ibu, Suami, Istri, Kakak, Adik, Anak, Sahabat, Semuanya...

Rasakanlah sensasi yang timbul sesudahnya.
Rasakanlah energi cinta yang mengalir perlahan saat menatap wajah yang terlelap itu.
Rasakanlah getaran cinta yang mengalir deras ketika mengingat betapa banyaknya pengorbanan yang telah dilakukan orang-orang itu untuk kebahagiaan anda.

Pengorbanan yang kadang tertutupi oleh kesalahpahaman kecil yang entah kenapa
selalu saja nampak besar. Secara ajaib Tuhan mengatur agar pengorbanan itu bisa
tampak lagi melalui wajah-wajah jujur mereka saat sedang tidur. Pengorbanan yang
kadang melelahkan namun enggan mereka ungkapkan. Dan ekspresi wajah ketika tidurpun mengungkap segalanya.

Tanpa kata, tanpa suara dia berkata... "betapa lelahnya aku hari ini".
Dan penyebab lelah itu? Untuk siapa dia berlelah-lelah? Tak lain adalah kita.
Suami yang bekerja keras mencari nafkah, istri yang bekerja keras mengurus dan
mendidik anak, mengatur rumah. Kakak, adik, anak, dan sahabat yang telah melewatkan hari-hari suka dan duka bersama kita.
Resapilah kenangan-kenangan manis dan pahit yang pernah terjadi dengan menatap
wajah-wajah mereka. Rasakanlah betapa kebahagiaan dan keharuan seketika
membuncah jika mengingat itu semua.
Bayangkanlah apa yang akan terjadi jika esok hari mereka "orang-orang terkasih itu"
tak lagi membuka matanya, selamanya dan tiada lagi kasih yang akan tercurah tuk kita
sirna harapan membuncah yang tak terucapkan mereka sebelum saat itu tiba..........renungkanlah

I quote it from the email i've got today... nice reading huh..